Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Where do the days go?

I had a call from my sister yesterday. 

"So, uh, why aren't you blogging anymore?" she asked.

Hmmm, I really don't have an answer for that!  I let "stuff" take over my life and have completely lost track of the days.  I really didn't realize how much time has passed since I last was here, putting my thoughts down and sending them out into the blogisphere.

This is one of the things I am working on NOT happening in my life.  I made my "new years resolutions", so to speak, on my birthday in September.  One of them, one of the most important I think, is to enjoy every day and really live my life.  Not just pass through, but really take notice of what it is I am doing and who I am doing it with. 

Life is waaaayyy too short to speed through it - you miss all the good parts and forget to see the beauty that is everywhere around us.

So, where do the days go?  I still don't have an answer to that, but from now on I will at least be able to tell you what I did with my days!  And from now on, I will be more faithful in sharing those days with you!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Spaghetti Sauce...

I was cooking dinner tonight and it occurred to me that life is a lot like spaghetti sauce! 

Now, when I make sauce there a few things that remain constant:
1.  It NEVER, NEVER comes from a can or jar.
2.  There are always onions.
3.  There are always mushrooms.
4.  There are always diced tomatoes, and yes, they are from a can!

That about covers the constants.  Everything else is up in the air until it actually gets in the pot. 

Sometimes I like veggie sauce, other times I like meat.  My current favorite meat is Italian seasoned ground turkey.  Occasionally I use hamburger and season it up good! 

When it comes to the tomato part of the sauce there are a few options.  Like I said before, it starts with the diced tomatoes - italian seasoned.  Then I might use tomato sauce or paste - depends on how I feel that day.  Or just another can of diced tomatoes!

There are always herbs and spices, but not always the same selection!

Then I have to decide if I'm going to cook it quick or slow - how hungry am I and how long did I put off making dinner?  These are the keys to this decision!

Last choice is the noodle.  I don't always use the typical spaghetti noodle.  In fact rotini is my favorite.  I use this most often with any kind of sauce - red, white, cheese, you name it!  I love the rotini!

So, as you can see, my sauce is never the same.  A little variation here, a dash different there and the whole outcome is completely different. 

Such are our days as we make our way through life. There are constants and choices, which when combined define our days and lives.

Some of our constants might be:
1. Well, the simple fact that we woke up and got out of the bed!
2. Loved ones.
3. Toothpaste choice, you get the idea...

So, each is day similar, but made unique by the little choices we make all day long - wear the comfy shoes or the cute ones that hurt your feet?  Take lunch or buy?  Dinner with friends or quiet night at home?  Little choices that make up the fabric of our days.

There are also always leftovers - in life and in sauce!  A lingering feeling, a to-do list not yet completed, a question unanswered.  These leftovers weave their way into the fabric of our days making each one different from the last.

I like to think that my leftovers get better with time, just like my spaghetti sauce! 

Bon Appetit!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Morning...

Hello Morning, my sweet friend... We're up before the sun again!
The day ahead is packed... lot's of people, noise and fun!
It will be rush, rush, rush from this to that...
I don't dare slow down or I'll miss a beat

But for now, it's just you and me....
You are beautiful in all your dew, your air crispy and fresh...
Here comes the sun to join us now...
A world scrubbed clean to start anew...
Hello Morning....


Have a fabulous day!!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Kids... WOW

Sometime around noon...

Today I was talking on the phone with a gal that I speak with nearly every day at work.  In the course of taking care of business we chat - we've become very good at multitasking!  Part of their business is screenprinting t-shirts and they do a lot of work with high schools.  In the past they have had a couple requests from high school girls to print sexually explicit t-shirts and they turned them down flat.  Which, you know, good for them!  

Well today, a young lady comes into the shop with her cell phone in hand.  She tells the gals she is aware that they wont print "dirty" shirts, but this isn't really bad so maybe they would print it for her?  And she shows them a couple pictures on her cell phone....

On the front of the shirt, on the left shoulder, is a big splat.  The back of the shirt reads "Did I pull out soon enough?" 

I'll tell you what - I was disturbed!  And grossed out.  And... well just, yuck!  A teenaged girl not thinking this is bad?  What the heck is her definition I wonder?  It was not a shining moment and my general belief that kids are pretty cool took a beating! 

Then...sometime around 5pm...

Not being a mother myself, there hasn't been much opportunity for me to enjoy high school sports since I was actually in high school - many, many... okay one more... many years ago!  Even all those years ago, I wasn't much involved.  I would attend a game or two, but really my interests were elsewhere.  Tonight I realized just what I've been missing!

My friends 16-year-old daughter is on her high school swim team and I had the privilege of watching her swim meet tonight.  And I was thrilled and amazed by these kids.

Now, I'm pretty fond of this young lady that I have known since she was hangin' out in her mamas belly, so one could argue that I am a little biased in my opinion.  But I don't think so.  These kids really ROCK!  Every one of those girls swam their hearts out and when they weren't in the water themselves they cheered at the top of their lungs for their pals. 

It was a joy to watch those girls in and out of the water.  They all worked hard and focused and got the job done! It was fantastic!

I had an incredible time and had my faith in kids in general pretty much restored.  I mean really, when I see the focus and dedication these kids are capable of, how can I doubt our future will be in good hands?

Friday, September 25, 2009

Users Manual...

If there were a "users manual" for life, I would hope that these would be a few of the Do's and Don'ts we would find inside...

Do's

...live your live - don't watch it!

...start each day like there's no tomorrow!

...dance in the rain to the tune in your head - and laugh out loud while doing it!

...buy yourself flowers - just because!

...take baby steps - life changes every minute, but changing your life takes time, patience and determination!

...walk with your head held high - it's safer and allows you to see all the beauty in the world!

...stop and look around at God's glory!

...when it's time to let go, let go - especially when it's the hardest thing you have ever done or ever will do!

...give a smile to at least one stranger a day - it may be the only one they get!

...strive to improve yourself every day!

Don'ts...

...let fear stop you from doing anything in life that is in your heart to do!

...underestimate yourself or others - we all have hidden depths!

...grin at your mama while she is scolding you - it only makes it worse!

...stare directly at the sun!

...disregards a childs opinion - you may find your answer through the simplicity of a childs reasoning!

...drag your feet - march into the world proudly and with strength!

...stomp in puddles with your shoes on - take the shoes off first, it's much more satisfying!

...be someone you aren't, for anybody - it never ends well!

...let a compliment go by unrecognized and unappreciated!

...forget to tell yourself YOU LIKE YOU!!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

A lovely young lady...

My cousin, Sandy, has been much on my mind, in my heart and in my prayers lately.  I was thinking about her again this morning and wondering at what an amazing woman she is.  She is the wife of a military man, a mother to three amazing kids and an all around wonderful person! 

We didn't grow up together.  In fact as kids I think we only met two or three times, but boy did she leave a lasting impression!  Sandy was incredibly bossy and bratty every time she and her folks came to visit our grandparents. However, if you were to ask her today she'd tell you she has no memory of that behavior!  Let me just say that there was a lot of groaning from the local cousins whenever we learned of a planned visit - sorry Sandy... 

The years passed, we grew up and moved out into the world.  Occasionally Grammy would tell me she had heard from Sandy or her mom and she would fill me in on all that was new with them.  Grammy would tell me what a nice young lady Sandy had grown into (I couldn't wrap my head around that - again sorry Sandy).  I knew when she joined the service, Air Force I think but don't remember for sure.  I knew when she got married, had her first child, her second and her third.  With every new occasion Grammy related, she would say what a nice young lady Sandy had grown into.  And still I hadn't met her as an adult.

Nine years ago, ish, I moved to Colorado Springs with my job.  I was telling Grammy all about it and you know what she was most excited about?  Yep, you guessed it!  Sandy was currently living in Colorado Springs!  Grammy put the press on me every time I talked to her to go see Sandy.  Call Sandy - she really has grown into such a lovely young lady!  I am a little ashamed to say that I couldn't get past those childhood memories enough to pick up the silly phone and call her.  For almost a year I was a stubborn, stubborn girl. 

It wasn't until our Grammy died that I finally did what she had asked me so many times to do.  I only wish I had done it sooner, because Grammy was right.  Sandy has grown into such a lovely young lady! 

Recently Sandy has shown incredible strength and depth of love.  She and her family cared for her mom in her final days.  They didn't just take care of her, they helped her to fullfill her final wishes.  There was an adventure to California, a fishing trip, a horse back ride, girl time, family time and love all around.  She helped her mom leave this earth in the manner in which she lived her life on it - with gumption!  It is an amazing gift she gave her mother and one which she recieved at the same time. 

Although Sandy and her family are now mourning the passing of not only Sandy's mother, but also her husbands grandmother, who passed only a matter of days after her mom, she continues on.  After all, she is her mothers daughter - full of gumption... and a lovely young lady!

I love you Sandy!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

It's all about the attitude...

I have to say that yes, it is good to feel good!  I got a little tummy bug over the weekend and it put me out of commision for several days.  When I am feeling really crappy, and the crappiness continues for more than one or two days, there comes a point that I forget what feeling good feels like.  I actually begin to wonder, is this what I have in store for me for the rest of my days?  

This is pretty much how I was feeling yesterday when I spoke with a gal I haven't spoken with in several weeks and realized what dope I am!

My job is pretty much all on the phone.  Talk, talk, talk all day long.  In the nearly four years I have been doing this job I have forged relationships with several people that I speak with nearly every day.  I have come to know them, their families, their ups, downs and middles.  I have come to care about these people I have never met in person. 

This gal I spoke with yesterday is one of these wonderful people I met through my job.  I speak with her several times a week and then not at all for weeks at a time.  It's only recently that I found out why.  I'm not comfortable sharing the details of her story with you as it is not my story to tell.  Suffice it to say that she is experiencing some significant health challenges. 

What I would like to share with you is her spirit.  This gal is so full of positive attitude it oozes out of her and over 3000 miles of phone line.  Her voice just bubbles with joy.  It always brings a smile to my face when she answers the phone, I just can't help it.

So, here I am yesterday, feeling crappy and striving to remember what it feels like to not feel crappy and who should pick up that phone 3000 miles away?  Yup, my pal that hadn't answered that particular phone in roughly 4 weeks!  As soon as I heard her sunny voice I realized how long it had been and that there must have been a set back in her health.  You wouldn't know it from her voice - my only clue was that I simply hadn't heard her voice in so long.  So I asked what was up and she told me.  And it wasn't good.  But you know what, not one ounce of self pity, sadness, fear, or any other negative emotion could be heard.  Not a single little hint.  She just doesn't have it in her and I'll tell you what - I was inspired and a little awed by her strength.   I told her how incredible I think she is.  And this is what she told me:

"A smile may not change my diagnosis, but a smile just might change my prognosis."

I think these words that my pal has chosen to live her life by should be adopted by us all.  Your diagnosis doesn't have to be some terrible thing like my pal, but no matter what's going on it can only be better if you put a smile on it. 

Funny thing about a smile, even when it starts with forced effort it shortly becomes genuine.  So, lets all put on a smile, go out there and have our BEST day yet...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Couch Potato, Or Baker?

I have been following the Couch Potato to 5K program over the last couple months to help me get to a healthier me.  Now, I wouldn't say I was exactly a couch potato to start with - I'm more of a big baker spud!!  Having said that, it is taking me longer than the outlined nine weeks to make it to the 5K mark. 

However, persistance is key and I am persistant! 

Today is the day that we (my mom is doing this right along with me) are to jog for 2 miles - no walking.  This is a milestone as it is the first day of the program that is all jog!  For this most auspicious of occasions we decide to jog along the path between the Boathouse and Owen Beach, right along the water.  Beautiful morning, gorgeous scenery and very few people this time of day and the stage is set. 

As we are doing our warm up walk and stretching mom and I discuss whether we are going to repeat the last session, a combo of jog and walk, or press on and jog the 2 miles.  I think we should press on and mom is questioning if she can do either one justice today.  Finally, just as we finish up our stretches, she agrees to go for it and we're off! 

Me, Mom and Jazzy (Mom's dog) trotting along drinking in the beauty all around us.  There's the ferry coming in to unload it's passangers and cars, only to load up again and head back across the bay.  The fishermen are out in droves - I hope they have a fantastic catch!  The sailboats with their sails unfurled in the crisp morning air - gorgeous!  There's a little seal swimming it's seal swim.  It is truely magnificent - the sights, sounds and smells all around us! 

With all this beauty all around me I hardly notice my gasping breath and tightening leg muscles!  Until about the half way mark.  My breathing is not too bad but the muscles are starting to cramp more with each step.... so I slow to a walk for about a minute then start the jog again.  Jog for a couple minutes then walk...and so on and so on, with more walk and less jog, all the way back to where we started at which point I am practically hobbling along.  Not my finest moment!  I didn't get it done...

But you know what? This is actually one of my proudest momenets as well.  I am proud of myself for not completely quitting.  I am proud of myself for knowing that next time will be better. I am proud of myself for knowing that there will be a next time, because I refuse to quit! 

What I am absolutely the most proud of is.... MY MOM!!!!  She jogged the entire 2 miles - a lot of praying, but NO walking! 

YOU ROCK MOM!!! 

And it's still early in the day, so let's go have our Best day yet...



 

Friday, September 11, 2009

Here's the thing...

Yesterday was my 41st birthday.  As I take my first steps into my 42nd year I look around me and can honestly say that I'm really not entirely sure how I got here!!  I mean, where did the time go?  My grammy used to say that as we get older time passes faster, but as a kid I totally didn't get it.  Now I wish for the magic dust that slows the passage of time!

I have had many, many adventures over the last forty odd years - wonderful for the most part, some not so much.  I intend to have many more adventures over the next forty to fifty years, so I had better stay sharp because time isn't going to wait for me to pay attention!  Lately I have learned that when you don't pay attention to your own life you miss so much and more often then not you stray off course.  Yes, I only just learned this lately... Some things take longer to learn than others!

So, here's the thing... I'm done straying off course.  That's not to say that I wont change course from time to time, but it will be with intent - not because I had my head in the clouds while life was happening all around me!  I am going to live each day with purpose and joy and I'm going to take you along with me!  Are you ready?  I am....

Over the course of the next year, my 42nd year in the making, I have a few things that I am going to accomplish. Here they are are in a convenient list!

  • Enjoy every bit of every day
  • Run 3 miles with no stopping or walking
  • Finish writing novel
  • Remember to look at the beauty around me everyday
  • Participate in a triathelon
  • Have a baby
  • Be the best me I can be - always!
  • Chronicle my efforts regularly on this blog
These are the things that top my list right now... some of them are already underway, some are simply reminders and others I haven't even started....

I ask again - Are you ready?  Well, I am, so - Let's go have the BEST day yet...